Let It Go!

 I have carefully analysed my own feelings when I was in deep pain. In fact I have noticed when I am in deep pain or agony I do not see the things around me clearly. It is like I am in another dimension or world (like Stranger Things or Spell Binder) where everything else ( the things like job, salary, and other material things) become so immaterial. I have also realised that the more I try to look up for solutions or more I try to find ways to get out, the pain becomes doubled or sometimes trippled. 

Something else I have noticed is the sense of power and control when I am in pain. I tend to think I am the least powerful person with no control at all which also leads to the idea that right now I am the most victimised person in the world ( which is extremely big lie). 

However, when I am happy I can takr things very nuetrally and I can be indifferent. Sadness is the feeling that destabilises me the the most. I only tend to relax when I try to see myself as someone totally stranger to me. 

Suffering is a feeling that is attached with our understanding of self. The more more try to be selfish (myself as a person) I try to centre everything around 'I' and then evrything becomes 'my'. All these philosophical thoughts disappear when you have a problem and all the problems and issues become 'mine'. 

Suffering and pain will be totally gone from a world where there is no 'I' and 'my'. Perhaps this is what Buddha tried to teach and that is the simple truth we forget. 

Letting something go is not that easy. It needs a lot of courage! Whatever we preach and lecture, letting go is the most difficult thing in this world. But it is also an inevitable test everyone has to take in our life which is so temporary and fragile. 

So instead preaching 'let it go', let's really practise it.